Writing things down

Whose Feelings Are These?

Art is quite fun. Especially for those who are honest with themselves. It's a language without words. I used to read Blue Period back when a friend of mine bought it, but then she moved away and I stopped despite really liking it. A few days ago, I started from the beginning and started saving some panels or pages I wanted to remember.

I know that everyone's attracted to people who are full of confidence and have genuine passion. That's why I've always been trying to act confident wherever I go. But the scary thing about art, is that you can't fake it. But only the people who've drowned themselves can share the terror of the sea, or the pain of suffocating underwater. If you want to be able to understand how that person feels, you have no choice but to jump into the water too. All I ever think about is what other people think of me... I thought my love was the only thing that could protect me, but sometimes, I don't even know what I truly love. ...There's not much point in comparing how good you have it relative to others. All you can ever do is imagine others' pain at best.

It's scary to always think of others. It's also scary to focus on oneself. I find that thinking of people in general fills my mind up very rapidly, and it's like my brain gets out of memory and nothing makes sense anymore.

But it's your own responsibility, to stop yourself from breaking down.

I'm still not comfortable doing a lot of things, and I think with some I'll just be uncomfortable forever. There's a lot of stuff I still need to figure out, and it stings to think of how late I believe I am at doing so. There are a lot of things I'm constantly thinking about, for example, but lately sharing them has grown so scary I can't even think about it. I'm kind of forcing myself to blog right now, borrowing words and pictures from a story that's speaking to me. What do you see in these snippets? Do your feelings resonate too?

Truth is, you should be free to do as you like. Because when it comes down to it, your life is your own.

Read Blue Period, it's good.

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